signs in the dark

quick cool story:

i was going to bed the other night at camp after a long day. i shut the door to my room, and bam, my silly bands were glowing like no other. at first i was like, whoa, these things glow! cool! and then, as i took them off, i realized something...i really thought about for the first time what my silly bands are...

now let's take a second before i go on to discuss how i do the silly band thing. i don't buy them. i don't ask people for them. i have two silly bands. why? because two people in life have given them to me. they didn't ask me if i wanted to pick one from their batch or if i wanted to trade. i simply have two silly bands...two silly bands that were given to me by two different people for two different reasons.

ok, let's resume.:

my silly bands are a softball bat and a Jesus fish. and that night, after a long day of camp away from my home and husband. away from my cute little dogs and instead with lots of children, young girls, old friends, current friends, new friends, and really just lost people...i realized why i was where i was. God confirmed it for me. He let me know that i'm not done with softball because He has this for me.

sometimes i wonder, or rather, Satan likes to tell me, you're too old to still be playing. what are you doing still doing camps and being all about softball, Norie? why don't you just quit and do PR and help contribute to the income? why don't you get a real job like everyone always teases you about not having?

but that night, God silenced that voice. He quieted all those questions and all that anxiety/worry/doubt that perhaps i'm still involved with softball out of selfish desires. He let me know something about my life. that right now, softball and Jesus are what i'm supposed to be doing. that if it was just softball, ya, that might be a selfish desire. but because Jesus is alive in me makes all the difference about what i'm doing. and i was, i am so thankful for that. i'm thankful to be reminded that God is using me and yet, still allowing me to be a part of something i love so much. our God truly is greater and higher than we can fathom. and i am so thankful and humbled to know:

Isaiah 55:9 (New International Version)

9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts."

Thank you, Lord.